My name is Erika Maria Pell, I'm 19, I'm 5'2 and I am probably the lamest blogger you will ever meet! In all actuality that's probably not the most inviting way to introduce you to my blog but If you couldn't tell already, I'm fairly awkward and not in the charmingly adorable way. So back to the topic at hand, This is my first blog post! I figured it would be best to tell you all a little bit about my self. I live in quite possibly the smallest town in all of America population 5000. I grew up surrounded by love and support from my incredibly big family and close group of friends. But I still wasn't happy. I was born bigger, Chubbier as most adults would say. Bigger in the Honey booboo type of weight. At 10 years old I developed a severe form of Anxiety making it impossible for me to leave my house. I couldn't eat because I felt like I was being judged with every bite, I couldn't sleep because I was uncomfortable with the extra rolls I slept on in the middle of the night, I never made eye contact because I knew that If I looked up they would have no choice but to analyze my face and they would see my double chin. I tried diets but those would last two days if I was lucky and working out made me too embarrassed. Eventually though I grew up. I never really lost all my baby fat and there are still days when I look at myself in the mirror and feel disgusted by my thighs and my big stomach. The fact that little girls and even younger boys have to grow up feeling the way that I did kills me. I want to help these people love themselves exactly the way that they are. I don't want anyone to feel that they have to change themselves for anyone except themselves. I am by no means over weight but I still felt that I was the biggest person in the world even if someone is over weight, you don't have to do anything, you do things because you want too. no matter what happens with this blog I want everyone who sees this know that I am here for them , no matter who you are.
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