Makeup of the Day!

Hello beautiful boys &girls so today I thought I would do something a little bit different! It's a makeup of the day! So for today I'm actually going out so I thought I'd do a little bit more of a dramatic look! I went for a black smokey eye. And a red lip! Here are the products I used. There all fairly cheap and you can get most of them at a drug store! Except my lipstick that's from sephora! ( treat yo self) 

1. My eye pallete! Its actually called the "smoky" pallete from Walmart it was 16$ and is my ultimate go to! 

2. For my liquid liner I use a "stilla liquid liner" 7$ also from Walmart. 

3. My foundation is "maybeline BB cream"  I got that at Cvs for 12$ 

4.my blush is "tarte" light pink at Walmart for 12$ 

5.my mascara is "scandal eyes" for 7$ at Walmart.

6.my kohl liner for the bottom of my eyes is "elf" that was 1$ at target. 

So that's basically my makeup for a more dramatic look. Have an amazing day and don't forget to smile! 

Body Beautiful Sunday

Hello beautiful boys and girls! 

So I am officially declaring Sunday "Body Beautiful Sunday"

Every Sunday you need to sit back and think of three beautiful parts of your body that either you, or someone else loves.

Now this can be on your physical body or on your face, a feature that you like, or something you have been complimented on! Now I know this might take some time to really think about but I promise it will make your entire day! Okay so here are my three! 

1. My ankles are small! They look rocking' in a good pair of heels!

2. My nose is just like my dads! Every time I look in the mirror I see my dad!

3. My waist looks good tied up with a belt! 

Alright your turn! Have an awesome day! And don't forget to smile! 

Spring Season Style for Curvy Girls!

                                           Hello Beautiful boys & girls! Its officially spring!
Spring is the season where you drop the heavy sweaters and winter coats. Growing up I hated spring because it meant I couldn't cover up my body with layers to hide my size! Now I own my body and every single thing I'm self conscious about I embrace. That doesn't mean there isn't ways to draw attention to the features on your body your more comfortable with. In this blog post I'll show all my lovely curvy girls how to dress for spring while enhancing our beautiful bodies.

Arms!
Because its warm tank tops and t-shirts are definitely more popular, and if you're like me your upper arms can be a kind of insecure area. My main tips for this area are:
half sleeves! these don't show off the tops of your arms where you store most of your fat and they look super classy! plus  they'll keep you pretty cool!
tank tops with thicker straps! These will keep everything looking tight and make it super breezy!

Tummy!
If you're like me then this is definitely the most insecure part! In spring the crop tops start coming out and we all know that that just isn't comfortable for curvy girls with a little tummy. my personal favorite type of shirt to wear in the spring is a flowy baby doll top with a cinched waist. or a super loose  casual t-shirt!

Thighs!
Shorts, the bane of our existence. I have never liked shorts ever. In my personal preference I have always opted for a comfortable flowy high waisted  skirt! cinching it with a belt really shows off your waist! Never let anyone tell you you cant wear a maxi dress, Those suckers look amazing on anyone ! a maxi dress can be classy or totally casual! Also if you want to wear short but are self conscious of your thighs , cellulite, extra lovin, Try the tights approach. wear black or colored tights under your shorts. It hides any imperfections and looks pretty fashionable!

 

 

Accessories!
wearing jewelery! this takes attention off anything you don't want people to be looking at! Wedges are now totally acceptable because its spring! these elongate your legs making them look more toned and slim! hats! I personally love big floppy sun hats! these look good on anyone and are just super fun to wear! Its spring, you don't have to wear all blacks and neutral colors. You're supposed to wear bright colors! all that really matters is how you carry yourself and that you're comfortable and confident in your clothing! be you and be beautiful! and don't forget to smile!

A few of my Favorite Spring Outfits!

Prom!

                                                               Don't forget to smile!

My Relationship With My Mother

Ok so This blog post is going to be a kind of ranty blog post about my dysfunctional relationship with my mother, so If you don't like reading kind of sad/ kind of happy posts, I would scroll away now. Scroll away now, scroll as fast as you can! ;)
                              Anyway My relationship with my mother isn't particularly...good. If you haven't noticed already I'm a fairly messed up young adult with quite a few issues of my own, one of the most prevalent being my terrible, terrible anxiety. So what I'm trying to say is some of what my mom does and doesn't do is partially my fault as well, because, what can I say I'm just a basket of wacky all around. I've always been incredibly insecure about my body and my face and all that good stuff so I've always been told by counselors and family members that you're mother is the one you should talk to about these problems because she will understand. NEWSFLASH: she doesn't. my mom is a size two with the body of a supermodel ( there goes me ever taking her wedding dress) and she always has been therefore she doesn't really understand what its like to have body issues. I don't blame her for that how could I? What I do blame her for is the way she addresses the issues of her daughter. When I would go to her with a problem she would tell me I had to exercise and stop eating crap. I know its naïve but I just wanted her to tell me that I was beautiful the way that I was. My mom also didn't know how to handle my anxiety, she didn't seem to realize that four straight hours of yelling at me about my grades and how I didn't clean my closet didn't really do much to calm me down. As I got older She got worse. When I turned 18 she began telling me I didn't have to live in HER house and that if I was so unhappy I could just leave. It was really rough getting called at college and told you couldn't come home this weekend because she found her shirt in your dresser. Things aren't always bad. when she has her good days things are great, we'll bake together, go shopping or even just watch a movie. She's not a bad person. Not at all. I don't think my mother knows how to handle me, I don't think she ever will. I hope one day when I get older that I  can understand her more and maybe we can have the type of relationship I see all my friends experiencing. Any way that's all for my ranty blog post. I love you all and don't forget to smile!

Love the Unloved

                                                                    
                                                            Hello Beautiful boys & girls!
                             So todays blog posts theme is.... Loving the Unloved! I know, it sounds like some terrible 80s movie soundtrack, but none the less its a pretty awesome motto! Every single person has had a moment in there life where they have felt totally alone and that no one loves them. It could be twenty seconds or twenty years it doesn't matter. I don't completely mean feeling abandoned or hated. For example, getting a good grade on a test and having it brushed off by everyone around you. What no one realizes is that you never study but you studied for hours to get that grade. Or hearing your family compliment your sibling about how great they look when you tried just as hard to look decent. What about trying to tell a story or a joke and having everyone speak over you? These may not seem like moments that would alter your life entirely, but those small moments of feeling totally insignificant can have lasting affects on you as a person. Then there's the big moments of feeling unloved. People have to deal with the pain of being completely abandoned by the people they thought they could trust. Some people even have to deal with constant humiliation by people who are supposed to love them calling them names and saying terrible things. This is where you come in! All the things I mentioned above are your perfect opportunity to love the unloved. The way to do this is so simple its stupid. 1. Listen! if you see someone being completely ignored listen to there story, even if you could care less a quick head nod and a smile isn't going to hurt anyone. 2. Compliment, Compliment, Compliment. Its really not difficult to give someone a compliment here's a list

• I love your hair!
• literally you always look so put together
• I wish I had your eyes
• you look nice today

So that is your challenge for today! make someone happy by loving the unloved. So that's all for today I love you all , and don't forget to smile.

A Best Friend is Someone Who Loves You When You Forget To Love Yourself.

                      Many people will walk out of your life but only true friends leave footprints on your heart                 
                                                   I am an incredibly stubborn girl. I grew up with a family where if you cross someone they are out of your life forever. When I turned 10 my dad got a tattoo on his wrist  that says "DTA" this essentially stands for Don't Trust Anyone. Because of my stubbornness I lost more friends than I can count. I learned from experience that fights & arguments happen and that is totally normal it just means that you and this other person are comfortable enough with each other to challenge there opinions. No healthy relationship is fight free. Having a best friend is basically like being married. You do everything together, you love each other and ultimately you fight like a couple. Being insecure is a major factor in the downfall of friendships. If you're not comfortable being around yourself, you wont be comfortable around anyone else. Okay that's it for this post. I love you all and don't forget to smile! 

                    Reasons to Smile Today

                                                 2.7 million puppies are adopted each year!
                               The smell of a newly opened box of Cinnamon Toast Crunch
               The only mammal that cant jump is the Elephant (I mean imagine an elephant jumping)
                                              Ordering a small drink and getting a large
                                       Waking up to the smell of rain after a bad storm
                                                 100% charge on your cell phone
                                  Lighting a bunch of candles when its snowing outside
                       When someone tries not to laugh and the corner of there mouth rises
                                              Peeling the green stuff off of corn
                                     Your absolute favorite meal served on your birthday
                                 Cows have best friends they spend there whole lives with
                  When male puppies play with female puppies they often let the female win.
There's a super hero with a hearing aid called Blue ear, created to help a boy with a hearing disorder

Who Am I?
My name is Erika Maria Pell, I'm 19, I'm 5'2 and I am probably the lamest blogger you will ever meet!  In all actuality that's probably not the most inviting way to introduce you to my blog but If you couldn't tell already, I'm fairly awkward and not in the charmingly adorable way. So back to the topic at hand, This is my first blog post! I figured it would be best to tell you all a little bit about my self. I live in quite possibly the smallest town in all of America population 5000. I grew up surrounded by love and support from my incredibly big family and close group of friends. But I still wasn't happy. I was born bigger, Chubbier as most adults would say. Bigger in the Honey booboo type of weight. At 10 years old I developed a severe form of Anxiety making it impossible for me to leave my house. I couldn't eat because I felt like I was being judged with every bite, I couldn't sleep because I was uncomfortable with the extra rolls I slept on in the middle of the night, I never made eye contact because I knew that If I looked up they would have no choice but to analyze my face and they would see my double chin. I tried diets but those would last two days if I was lucky and working out made me too embarrassed. Eventually though I grew up. I never really lost all my baby fat and there are still days when I look at myself in the mirror and feel disgusted by my thighs and my big stomach. The fact that little girls and even younger boys have to grow up feeling the way that I did kills me. I want to help these people love themselves exactly the way that they are. I don't want anyone to feel that they have to change themselves for anyone except themselves. I am by no means over weight but I still felt that I was the biggest person in the world even if someone is over weight, you don't have to do anything, you do things because you want too. no matter what happens with this blog I want everyone who sees this know that I am here for them , no matter who you are.