Please don't think I don't love you, understand that this is just as hard for me as it is for you.
Understand that all of your memories are all of mine as well.
Understand that when I cry or throw a fit and call you names it's because I'm coping with the loss of my family.
I do not want to lose either of you but I have to step away from the situation at times to cope on my own.
To my mother, I know that sometimes you are frightened to be in our house alone at night, but I am always here.
I know you look at your naked ring finger and cry yourself to sleep every night, understand I am one phone call away, no matter what time it is.
I know that sometimes it takes everything you have to not break down in tears when you see other married couples out to dinner while you are alone, but I am always willing to go with you wherever you choose to go.
I know the sight of his closet downstairs makes your heart ache and you want nothing more than to see him wear that same shirt you two always fought about, understand I am always here to take your mind off of it and put your focus on my crazy outfits.
To my father, I am so angry with you for changing my life but I still love you understand I will be angry for a very long time but that does not stop me from loving you.
I know you tried to keep things from me so not to hurt me because you love me but understand that it still hurts.
I know you have to move on with your life because of the choices you made but realize I am too old to accept this new life.
I know this is what you wanted and this is what you chose but I also know you hurt sometimes too thinking of the things you left behind.
I know it hurts you to not speak to me every day but I am coping as well, I am still here though thousands of miles away I am still here.
Please don't think I don't love you, understand that while I may be old enough to handle this on my own the thought of you both finding other people to love breaks my heart.
Understand that when I go to sleep every night everything has changed.
I no longer have one whole family I have two halves of a whole.
So while I am still here for both of you please understand that this whole situation has broken my heart and I need time.
While you two may move on and find new people to love I will never be able to move on and find a new family to have.
Things are hard for me but please understand I still love you.
