My biggest fear!

Hello beautiful boys & girls! 

So I know , I know it's been ages since I've posted. Not a lot of people read my blog but for the lovely ones who do I'm super sorry! So much has been going on!   But that's no excuse! This blog is important to me and I really should keep it up, I need to stop being so afraid of posting. Speaking of fears (smmoooootttthhhh transition there Erika)  I thought I'd make this blog post to talk about some of my biggest fears.

Everyone's afraid of something right? I had a friend who was terrified of dumpsters because she thought squirrels would jump out of them. Now my fears are a little bit more rational. 

I hate birds. 

I do not like any type of bird. At all. The thought of standing close to one actually makes my butt shake with fear.

I am that girl who screams like an idiot and hides behind someone when one flutters it's stupid wings past my head. I have no hidden background story as to why  I'm scared. I just cannot deal with winged, feathered demon creatures. 

 That is my main fear of course I have others such as, bugs and dying and losing a friend. But everyone has those fears. Being afraid of something is natural it makes you human. So be like me and be absolutely terrified of something. Scream like a girl. Find some big tough guy to stand behind and let yourself be afraid it's pretty exhilarating actually! Anyway that's it for today! I hope you have an amazing day and don't forget to smile! 

Living life the best you can.

 

Hello beautiful boys and girls! So this blog post isn't meant to be sad at all, I'm actually writing this to encourage people to be happy! But if this does make you just a little sad I'm sorry and I hope you can look on the bright side of this post! So just three days ago a boy that I went to school with all throughout my life was in a motorcycle accident and died. He was only 19 but he had two beautiful children. Granted I was never best friends with this boy, I did have my fair share of conversations with him, that now knowing he's gone I will never.          forget. The first time I saw him was in sixth grade he was in my math help support group. He didn't hang out with a crowd I would normally hang out with, but when I tell you he was smart , I mean he was smarrtttt. Not in the book sense but in the way that he always knew the exact thing to say when you needed it said. We never directly spoke he just made jokes that I would laugh at and he would smile and do his work. The first time he spoke to me was in eighth grade when he over heard me talking about liking a boy who didn't like me back I was being the typical dramatic teenager and he turned to me in his seat and said " well then he's not worth it, find a boy who actually likes you, you're pretty but don't be stupid." And that was all he said. I was frustrated with him and went home that day and moaned to my mom about how he insulted me as I got older I now know he was just trying to talk sense into me. Eventually I didn't need the math help anymore and I didn't see him at all because of our different social groups. In high school we spoke a few times and he was still that wise, sweet boy who talked me out of going out with that that boy in eighth grade. Although we were never that close and I haven't talked to him for a few years I will miss Matt, he was too young and too kind to go so soon. I encourage all of you to tell your family and your friends that you love them and give that person who you normally wouldn't speak to a chance. One person can change your life. Even the small impact Matt left on mine has really caused me to think of how grateful I am for everything I have and for the fact that I'm still here. So please live your life as much as you can do, you can make amazing things happen just by saying one sentence to someone you normally wouldn't even speak to. So anyway have an amazing day and don't forget to smile.

I'm home!

Hello beautiful boys and girls! So I am officially home for the summer! I'm out of my first year of college and I'm home until August! Basically what that means is, I'm going to be posting on my blog allloootttt more. This blog is kind of an awesome outlet where I can share cool stuff with you guys and learn amazing things from you guys!  so I can't wait to take better advantage of that. Just going through some of your posts makes me smile and I love that, because I'm a smiler😏 anyway! On that note have an amazing day and don't forget to smile!